Week 24 is approaching

So I still haven't uploaded anything. I am a dog. I really need to get on that. I am just so busy with works, school, and trying to be productive in the house that when I do waste time it's not doing productively wasteful things. Ha. I need to start the weekly belly pics now, since I didn't at first, and now I have a bump. It's crazy and I feel so beautiful. Literally the only time I don't is when I get on the scale.

I am putting on weight like someone bet me I couldn't or something. It's borderline scary, but I also think that once I have a baby and am plus 500 lbs, I'll feel really obligated to get it together. Wishful and procrastinating thinking? I think so, but also nothing motivates like feeling disgusting and huge. I really try to eat well,  but it is so hard. I don't have the most healthy relationship with food to begin with, I don't just eat to live. I don't quite eat to live, but I'm more on that end of the spectrum for sure. Not really sure why either, my dad is very fit and my mom always fed us pretty well, 1-2 veg and a fruit at dinner along with meat and not dessert nightly. I bet the portions were a little large and processesed sides were incorporated, but she did alot of cooking and didn't just live to feed us pizza and burgers. That being said, the biggest struggle for me right now is my consumption. I am literally hungry all the time. I have had 2 days this whole 24 weeks where I didn't feel at least 85% awesome, those two days I felt yuck and my belly really hurt. I think I ate too much, too fast when I wasn't hungry. Aside from that I can't be satisfied. I am really trying to make good choices, but nothing is filling. I try grains, fruits, vegetables, and of course junk. It all lasts the same, like 10 minutes and I want more. I am buying healthy stuff and consuming it, but I don't have the budget to eat only fresh fruits and vegetables or the will power probably. I am finally eating the things I buy and stuff is not going to waste so I feel very proud of that.

I realized today that starting my 24th week didn't mean I was starting the third trimester. Had I thought about this more, I would have known and not had to read it, but now I know. So, I have 1 more month of the second trimester to go. Basically 4 months when I had slyly convinced myself that I had 3. So I really have to get my weight undercontrol. I want to not have a belly full of stretch marks. Vain, I know, but I have boobs, thighs, and hips full of them. Puberty was terrible for my skin and I was terrible to my skin, so I am trying to be better to it now in hopes of not being covered. But I know the less I gain the more likely I am to not have them or have less.

This last month has been so nice. This whole pregnancy has been so nice. I feel so beautiful. Adam is so into all of this. He feels the baby kick and lays on my belly. He calls me beautiful, sexy, and georgous every day (which he did before, but I wasn't +30 lbs). It's so awesome. I am so in love with him and it grows everyday and he seems to be feeling the exact same way. It makes this process sooo much less mentally taxing for me. He is always texting me to tell me he loves and misses us or posting of Facebook when he feels her. It's so special. I didn't know what to expect from him and boy am I impressed. I wouldn't want to be going through all of this alone, and with him and my family and friends, I feel so supported. It is so wonderful.

I gave up my regular jeans after we got back from vacation on the 10th of this month. So at like 22 weeks or so. I could still get them on, but they started to get very uncomfortable. Now I am rocking the maternity pants that I can't believe even fit me. They are all like size small and size 6, I'm not either of those! So even my maternity clothes are making me feel lovely. My boobs have literally grown 3 cup sizes. I think maybe more, but I also think my cup size was too small pre pregnancy, so refuse to count up from that. I kind of hate it, they are even heavier then they were before and they don't seem to be stopping. I have 3 bras on the way from over seas, I should see them in a couple of weeks. I PRAY that they fit. I don't want to return them and order more. I just want to have a couple bras that fit and will fit for a while. I also pray that my boobs don't get much bigger. They seriously take away from my baby bump. If I were flat or smaller chested I would be showing more, but with my chest as it is, my bump won't be farther out than my boobs until 8 months, no joke. Adam loves it, but he is a man, so I can't really claim to be suprised there.

I haven't done much to prep for baby. I am a double dog. Adam has started to work on her room. He's been sick all week so that progress is halted at the moment, but I bet it will be redry walled this weekend and then we will paint. No idea on color yet, maybe yellow. We have a nice pile of stuff we have been gifted for our little lady. That is so cool, I feel so special and loved. I want to go through my maternity clothes and see what won't fit and maybe give to Adam's sister or consign. With it getting cold and most of this stuff being summer, I don't know that Ashley can use it. I also need to empty out the dresser upstairs so we can get it down here and hopefully refinish it and then stuff it with the clothes we have. Then I can maybe register at Target or something for the baby shower. Adam was planning one for me, but that suprise got messed up, so now I'm sort of at a loss. Do I try to initiate one for myself or wait for someone to just get on it. Not really sure what it appropriate. I want to do one in Kentucky and one in Indiana, The rough lists I made out for both locations seemed to deem two necessary, even if 1/3 of the people show up, it'll be probably like 8 -12 people at each and that seems okay. Not overwhelming. I just want to see everyone and celebrate this awesome time as much as possible. Still can't get over how blessed we have been so far. Now if we can figure out childcare I will be over the moon. That is one kink we have yet to un-kink.

Really going to try to post some pics of what we have so far, the babies room in progress, and my belly.

Ultrasound Scheduled!

Got the ultrasound scheduled for the end of this month! I am so excited! I don't think I'll ever be more impatient in my life. I just want to know what this little baby is, we really do think it's a boy, but I am dying to know for sure now. I still feel so good and I am so thankful for that. I can't get over how much of a nice expirence this has been. I really hope we end up with lots of kids. I can't even express it enough. But, we need better jobs/raises and all kinds of good stuff like that. I get off early tomorrow. I'm gonna do homework and hopefully do some house cleaning and consolidating and then if lucky, some baby prepping too!Adam took a belly shot last night. Maybe I'll find some time to upload that before my trip too.  I can't wait to go to KY, but I just want to get some things done before hand. I know Monday will be a blur and I won't get much done, no matter where I am. This is going to be a good two weekends, back to back in KY. It will be warmer, I will see my family and ALLIE! I can't wait to see her. She is getting so big and I feel like everyday I am missing some major stuff.

I have always felt like I feed off of others emotions. Empathy, right? I feel what they are feeling. When my office is negative I feel so negative and down. It has been like this for two days. I don't understand why I have to deal with such a hateful person. I don't understand why things that don't regard me at all are taken out on me. It's just so uncomfortable when certain people are in bad moods. It's not that hard not to project your crap on to others. I do it literally every day. I guess not everyone is blessed with a great attitude or life, I should probably be more understanding of that. It is really hard. I can barely tolerate negativity from anyone, let alone someone I share 40 miserable hours a week with. I need to just push it from my mind and keep planning my Friday and get some more work done so I actually can plan for tomrrow.

Introduction

At the suggestion of my sister Carmel, I have decided to start a baby blog. I am very excited to be pregnant, so it will be neat to have access to ME while I was pregnant. Really though right now I barely feel anything. I am about 9 weeks along and have had no morning sickness. My mom said she didn't either, so I am feeling pretty good about that. I feel really tired alot, but I work two jobs and have felt tired for a while; so this is not really a new feeling. I feel some period-like feelings, not cramps necessarily, but stuff going on in there. I usually feel like I'll go to the bathroom and find the biggest period ever.

My first doctor visit was last Tuesday. She came to the same conclusion Adam and I did and thought we were about 8 weeks along. I got strep throat while visiting my family in late April/early May and of course was prescribed antibiotics. Decided I was allergic to batch one on day 6 or 7 of meds and was told to stop taking and given nothing new. I got strep again the next week and was given new meds. So this miracle I get to expirence is thanks to me getting sick. I think it was a push for me. I have always told Adam if he wasn't ready for kids by the time I was 25, I was going to make the decision to leave. I wanted to be a mom and respected his not wanting kids just couldn't compromise my own dream and calling. So now I am pregnant, turn 25 in November and Adam is excited! It's all feeling really good right now. I have support from him, my family and his. I feel very good. Want to be closer to my family, not sure how to solve that problem yet, we will just have to visit more often.

Life right now is a hustle to get all individual ducks in a row asap, so the next few months can be spent getting all baby ducks in a row. We are working to finish the house. That is taking time, but Adam works nearly everynight after work on it, so I see progress getting made so fast. I'm still trying to decide on school this semester. I want to go back so bad, but I also need income. Hope to get all of that resolved in the coming weeks.

I really just can't believe this is real. I feel so good and so normal. I changed my way of eating probably 6 or so weeks ago, with a nagging feeling I wanted to starting probably around Easter. Now all the positive changes I am seeing, I don't know which to relate it to, the pregnancy or new habits. I hardly sweat anymore and have almost no B.O.; I used to be so sweaty, I would only wear tank tops due to constant armpit wetness that embarrassed me. At the beginning of the warm weather, my skin became oily which it always does. My facial oil level has seriouslcy reduced. I don't shine and produce oil nearly as much as I did just a couple months ago. I have been expiramenting with skincare too, but as a whole, on the days I do nothing with my face, I am not the greasepit I used to be. It is uncanny. Anyone expirence this during pregnancy? I want to know about what others have expirenced. I have always been curious, but never knew what to ask or even what to look for. Now, I feel like I have new questions daily.