Well, day two of "breaking habits" and I have started another post! So that is fabulous! I also have decided that nightly I will freeze Charlotte's milk, vs 1 or 2 nights a week bagging 50+ oz. I can bag an easy 12 or so daily and probably improve my rotation too, so she gets the oldest milk first. My brain is still a hodge podge of crap. Goals, Ideas, Issues, Problems, Stress, Bills, and I could go on for days. Guess I'll just jump in.

Charlotte is now 19 weeks old. She "turned" 19 weeks on Sunday. We had a great day, we were in Kentucky for a family reunion. The turn out was dismal, but I am happy I made the trip. We don't get nearly enough family time. I miss my Mom, Dad, Brother, and Sisters terribly, and it just gets worse as Charlotte grows. I don't want them to miss ANYTHING! She is just so sweet and cute and prescious. We drove down Saturday late morning and Charlotte was a dream as usual. She was asleep a while, then woke up. She talked to me and coo'd for an hour or so, finally got bored and uncomforatble so I proped a bottle for her in her car seat. I didn't hear another thing again until I parked.

I really cannot believe how much she has grown and how smart she is. It is so rewarding to watch her in all that she does. She is so happy all the time and eager to socialize. I love her so much. More then I could ever come close to expressing. That is part of why I really need to get it together. Be it, medication so I can focus or just decipline. Though, I have to say I have really tried to get it together on my own and I am failing. I hate the thought of medication, but I can't bear to keep up like I am. Charlotte deserves better.

That all being said. Another nothing post - BUT two posts two days in a row! I am on fire! Now to plan out topics of discussion and other things. The goal is to strengthen my writing skills and have something to do with my time.

No Words

Going to try to get back on track here. It is even more difficult to manage my time with new little baby Charlottes. She is such an angel, and when she doen't actually need me, I like to just enjoy her and play with her. It's taking it's toll on everything, not just my feeble attempt at blogging. I have to find a solution but I am completely lost as to what that could be. So. In effort to break my pattern at least, I'm just gonna write this post and publish it. No more putting it off until "insert dream scenario involving a spotless house and infinite paid vacation time". Just going to jump in and get into it all. Hope to do all things that way, just attack them head on and stop building a giant to do list and instead keep things from building up. Then, as I have free time or whatever I can deal with the old stuff. Sounds GREAT in theory doesn't it? Well with that - I have some things that just landed in my inbox. Time to get them off my desk and onto bigger and better things. Until  - - next time!