BABY GIRL!!

I have a little baby girl growing inside me! I can't believe it. The ultrasound was so fun and so amazing and made this all feel more real. I know I have felt her move a few times, but just since the ultrasound I know I have felt her twice. It's like seeing made my other senses more aware. I feel so excited and lucky! I guess we will have to try again another time for little John Wesley, considering this lil lady will have a very female name. I can't wait to start thinking of them and picking out some with Adam! He is excited. It was so adorable to see his smiles during the ultrasound and also hear his reaction to the sex. It caught us both so off guard. We were sure she was a little boy. He just kept saying that all that mattered was that she was healthy and she is! This is wild! I will have little fingernails to paint and hair to do. So much responsibility either way,  but I will have so much work building a strong woman! So excited. 20 wk appt next Tuesday. Wish every appt was an ultrasound one too. I want to see more of  her. She was so active and was sucking on her fingers. She didn't want us to see her lady parts. She waved at us. It was the coolest and most crazy thing I have ever expirenced.

Ultrasound Scheduled!

Got the ultrasound scheduled for the end of this month! I am so excited! I don't think I'll ever be more impatient in my life. I just want to know what this little baby is, we really do think it's a boy, but I am dying to know for sure now. I still feel so good and I am so thankful for that. I can't get over how much of a nice expirence this has been. I really hope we end up with lots of kids. I can't even express it enough. But, we need better jobs/raises and all kinds of good stuff like that. I get off early tomorrow. I'm gonna do homework and hopefully do some house cleaning and consolidating and then if lucky, some baby prepping too!Adam took a belly shot last night. Maybe I'll find some time to upload that before my trip too.  I can't wait to go to KY, but I just want to get some things done before hand. I know Monday will be a blur and I won't get much done, no matter where I am. This is going to be a good two weekends, back to back in KY. It will be warmer, I will see my family and ALLIE! I can't wait to see her. She is getting so big and I feel like everyday I am missing some major stuff.

I have always felt like I feed off of others emotions. Empathy, right? I feel what they are feeling. When my office is negative I feel so negative and down. It has been like this for two days. I don't understand why I have to deal with such a hateful person. I don't understand why things that don't regard me at all are taken out on me. It's just so uncomfortable when certain people are in bad moods. It's not that hard not to project your crap on to others. I do it literally every day. I guess not everyone is blessed with a great attitude or life, I should probably be more understanding of that. It is really hard. I can barely tolerate negativity from anyone, let alone someone I share 40 miserable hours a week with. I need to just push it from my mind and keep planning my Friday and get some more work done so I actually can plan for tomrrow.